Walking the streets of Pisa, Italy |
I wrote this essay when I turned 35. I still think much of what I said here is relevant, not just for those in their mid-30s, but for people of all ages. The platform I published it in is no longer online, which is why I'm republishing it here. If you're looking for some life lessons, you may or may not find it here. Either way, know that I'm rooting for you, wherever you are in your life and whatever it is you're going through.
I
turn 35 this Saturday. That’s two more years than Jesus, two less than INXS’s
Michael Hutchence. Age is nothing but time, and time, as Einstein so
brilliantly deduced, is relative. Depending on who I’m talking to, I’m either geriatric
or still wiping breastmilk from my lips (no, I don’t think that’s a very pleasant
image, either).
At
least one good thing about being smack dab in the middle of my 30s is that it’s
the perfect time to pause and consider the years I’ve been on this earth, reflect
on the life I’ve been given, and assess the direction I’m headed. You only
think you know what’s going on in your 20s, and by the time you’re in your 40s,
everyone expects you to have figured
everything out. Your 30s, then, is a sort-of buffer zone where you’re pretty
much sticking to a life plan, but still given enough wiggle room to make
mistakes, adjust goals, and even change course.
The tail-end of summer in Nice, France |
It’s
also a time when you can choose to share significant life lessons and
realizations and not be so quickly dismissed. With age comes experience and
while it may not be as extensive as someone who’s in the half-century mark or older,
there is value in your words, because, believe it or not, you’ve earned it.
Here
then are a few of the things I’ve learned after 35 years on this planet:
1. The only person you need to be at any age is yourself
Of
course I’m paraphrasing Troy Dyer (if you don’t know who Troy Dyer is, never
mind), but that doesn’t make it any less true. People put other people on a
pedestal and practically kill themselves emulating their best qualities, hoping
to gain similar achievements, or maybe even surpass them. But in truth, life
hands out different fortunes to everyone. While one person is a millionnaire at
birth, countless others will never experience wealth until they die of old age.
Some of us struggle and toil, while others “ride their own melt,” simply hoping
for the best.
Occasional
jokes aside, I have no hang-ups about my age. I’m very aware that some of us
left the starting line much earlier, and others much later. Everyone is
negotiating life’s autobahn, and the sooner we realize that cars will forever
be in front of and behind us, that we will never be first or last at anything,
the sooner we can relax and drive at our own pace.
Hanging out at "the world's most beautiful cafe" |
2. It’s okay to break up with friends
If
you’ve kept the same set of friends since kindergarten, consider yourself
lucky. When it comes to relationships, the stars align so rarely that it’s
become something truly special when you keep people in your life for any
significant period of time. But I’ve found that it’s okay to let go, of things,
as well as people. Just because you shared a table during lunch in the second
grade, or made fun of the same girl’s dress during high school, or went out drinking
all night where you shared your deepest, darkest secrets to each other, doesn’t
mean you’re bound for life. You choose the people you want to spend your most
precious time with outside of family or profession, so they might as well be people
you like and who like you.
I’ve
had my share of break-ups with friends. It’s not easy, and feels unnatural at
times. It’s not like breaking up with a significant other, where things are more
defined: you see each other, and then you don’t. The times I cut people out
from my life were the times I’ve had enough and I didn’t want to put up with
their shit anymore. I consider myself a patient, levelheaded guy; it takes an
enormous amount of asshole-ry to get me riled up enough to drop years of
association and forget any semblance of attachment. Choose people who are
inherently good, who will not abuse your generosity, who are themselves selfless
and kind, and, most of all, people who will encourage you to be the best person
you can possibly be. Don’t give up on people too easily, but when your happiness,
not to mention your sanity, are at stake, you may need to rethink the people
who occupy prominent billing in your life story.
3. Your dreams are your own. Don’t let others dictate your desires
It’s
so easy to get distracted by everything thrown at us through TV, movies,
magazines, and social media. We see or hear something, and before we know it, we’re
starting to yearn. There’s nothing bad about that; desire is healthy as it
keeps us running towards a goal. But make sure it’s what YOU want. Don’t wish
for a hula hoop just because you saw someone on the playground with it,
especially when what you really want is a bicycle.
People
dream of things for themselves all the time—a new car, a house, a wife/husband
and/or kids. A better job, a week in Paris, new shoes. Whatever it is, make
sure it’s something that you truly want for yourself. Be happy for friends who
get married, buy that bungalow inside a gated subdivision, or finally get that
much-coveted green card, but if these aren’t your dreams, don’t spend your life
chasing after them. Focus on your own needs and wants because life is too short
to try to win other people’s trophies.
Harbor in Monte Carlo |
4. Take care of your body, but don’t be your own slave
Dissatisfaction
with our looks has reached epidemic levels. If you don’t believe me, think
about the last time you hesitated getting dessert because of all that extra
calories, or the time you splurged on a new pair of jeans because it was
flattering to your figure, or how much you agonized about posting that photo because,
well, you weren’t sure if you looked your cutest.
I
can’t presume to know what goes in the mind of someone who has had to struggle with
weight issues as, thankfully, I’ve never had that problem (although I have been
told on more than a few occasions that I was “too thin” or getting dangerously
“too plump”). But what I know for sure is that I’ve never had to deprive myself
of anything in the name of dieting. I’m aware that practically all the science
says that one needs to eat right and engage in some form of regular physical
activity to be considered healthy, and I’m not disputing that. But the moment we
let this obsessive need to look good in order to gain the approval of others occupy
our every waking thought, is the moment we let go of our individuality and
become nothing more than drones whose idea of happiness and contentment is
hinged on how many “likes” our latest profile photo gets on Facebook.
5. Never believe your own hype
A
healthy dose of self-confidence is essential. Who else will believe in us if we
don’t believe in ourselves? But there is a difference between faith in our
capabilities, and overstating our competencies. One is walking calmly onstage
during a singing tilt, head held up high, knowing you’re ready to belt out that
piece you’ve been practicing for weeks; the other is telling everyone that no
one else in the competition is at your skill level.
I’ve
never thought I was good enough at anything and am genuinely surprised when
people appreciate, even celebrate, almost anything I’ve done. I know I need to
work on that. But I’ve always thought it was better to err on the side of
humility. Confidence can so easily morph into arrogance. How you respond to
compliments is a good barometer of your personality. I’ve found that people who
think too much of themselves are generally those with unresolved self-esteem issues.
It’s something to keep in mind the next time someone’s being an ass.
Having a drink of water at a public fountain in Rome |
6. Doing more for others is actually doing yourself a favor
The
great thing about being more giving is that it provides you with perspective you
would otherwise not be able to get. It’s no secret that I’ve grappled with
depression. One thing that helped me get through it is focusing on the things
that I have in my life that I am grateful for. And although it sounds a little
morbid and mean, the gratitude only intensified when I realized how little many
other people have.
I’m
not rich (far, far, from it), and I come from a simple family, but we live in a
country where beggars on the street are a common sight, where people live in wooden
shanties beside polluted rivers, and where hunger is a serious issue. The
moment we stop to give more of ourselves to others is the moment we understand how
privileged we truly are. It works both ways, too: try focusing on everything in
your life that you don’t have, and you’ll soon realize that you’ll never, ever
have enough.
7. Reading books and listening to music is never a waste of time
This
one is pretty much self-explanatory. I haven’t read nearly enough books as I
would’ve liked to this year, but music has been a constant presence. At this
point in my life, weeding out non-essential people is as simple as asking them
whether they like to read or listen to music. If the answer to either is “no,”
then I can already tell we won’t have a lot in common.
Books
and music are also a good way to expose yourself to the experiences of others
and figuring out what you can use in your own life. Because no matter how
unique you think your life is and how spectacularly interesting things have
happened to you, chances are, someone else has gone through the exact same
thing and have written or sung about it better than you can possibly imagine.